A few months before, I've been struggling with life changing decisions that I have to make. One by one, all the scrambled and unwavering thoughts I had are coming to full disclosure and I never felt at ease until now. If there is one thing that I've learned from all of these is that I have to be strong for myself and don't let anyone drag me down.
I have been living all my life knowing that I'll be the savior and shining beacon of my family and I so get that but there is only so much that I can give. I forgot that I also have a life to live and I have to love myself before I can love others.
If loving myself means letting go of people and to the things I'm used to, I'm willing to take the risk and bare the pain of being alone. I know, I am not alone because I still have my family and friends that never lost faith that I'll come back to my senses, but when I'm all alone I know the sadness and longing will silently creep in and I just have to endure it for me to be strong and to emancipate myself from everything that kept on holding me back.
I was never selfish nor self righteous. I never ask anyone to give nor buy me things. All I have right now came from my hard work. If people give me things that is because these people know who I am. The real Sherry. I can't attest their reasons and agenda for doing such but I'm just thankful that there are people who love me unconditionally and would do everything to make me feel special.
People can judge and criticize me whenever they want. That is their right. All I can say is that when you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself.
I don't owe anyone any apology and I don't ask people to do the same. Life happens.
I'm hoping and praying that everything will fall in its right place. This process won't be easy. It'll be one of the toughest decision I'll ever make but I'm so willing to take the chance for me to stand alone and be independent.
Whatever course you decide upon,
there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong.There are always difficulties arisingwhich tempt you to believe that your critics are right.To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires courage.
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
The purpose of relationship
is not to have another who might complete you,
but to have another with whom
you might share your completeness.
Everything that irritates us about othersCan lead us to an understanding of ourselves.
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because the people who matter don't mind and the people who mind don't matter!" ~Dr. Seuss